How Have You Been Really?
Hey, it's been a while! Just wanted to catch up with you all and just talk about my life. I don’t think I have talked about my life here so it's a first. I want you to also talk with yourself while reading this, you can argue with my opinion or think I am right. Let’s first talk about these two big years that passed in a blink of an eye. It’s pretty interesting how a lot has happened but at the same time, it felt as if nothing happened at all. A lot has come and gone in our lives, people had glow-ups, glow-downs (if that’s a thing), started doing new stuff… Now coming to me, my 2020 was overall not good. I would even say terrible. Maybe not the last months but the other times it was very depressing. I had the worst family problems that I honestly haven’t shared with anyone and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to. Everything crashed down like dominos. Once it rains, it pours I guess.
But good news, after everything worked out I finally had the time to focus on myself. And it was like an awakening because it made me happy as I have never experienced happiness before. Like happy as in people asking me “How are you?” after complaining about every minor inconvenience in their lives and me saying from the bottom of my heart
“I have never been happier.” They get shocked which is weird how people just expect you to complain all time. Like when people say they don’t like their appearance they expect you to complain about yourself too, like imagine saying “No I think I am pretty and have no complaints.” I feel like you would be hated even though you shouldn’t be. I just listened to myself I guess for the first time in my life. What I wanted, desired, loved, hated… I was living for others, for my parents so they could be proud of me, for my friends so I wouldn’t be alone. It’s weird saying that I learned to love myself but it’s exactly what happened to me. I understood which of my friends really cared about me and who didn't. This doesn't mean I cut my relationship with them I just restricted the number of things I would share with them.
I am so grateful for everything now living for me is such a miracle, a blessing that I want to spend every second enjoying it. I love listening to music and feeling it really in my bones, playing my bass guitar that freeing feeling of playing it is indescribable, I love just watching the sun rising and falling, even the crickets screaming at summer makes me happy. This doesn’t mean my life is always bubblegum pink but even when things start to go downhill I remind myself everything is meant for a reason. So my 2021 has been passing like the feeling of floating in the water, feeling my hair move in the water, the sun hitting my face, I don't have to worry about going too far because I know at the end of the day I am going to swim to the shore. I wrote all these listening to an album and let me say I am just thriving right now. If you are curious I am listening to “When Facing The Things We Turn Away From” it’s a really good album if you love good lyricism, piano, and guitar ballad mixed with amazing synth. Psych-pop is not for all but I would suggest trying it. After all, what do we lose from trying, right? If you have song or artist suggestions I would love to know as well. You can contact me from our e-mail address. I hope you have a wonderful day, I know I was a bit philosophical today but I hope you enjoyed it!
Love Ece, xoxo